its like i have nothing better to do then ponder my life. or maybe i write because one of my biggest strengths is communication. its like i cant understand what is in my head until i talk about it or write about it. if i write in my journal more than two pages, my hand cramps and im useless for the rest of the day. so, three cheers for typing.
i read this morning about what wisdom means and james 3:17 basically spells it out, wisdom is: pure, peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits and impartial and sincere. to me, this is a whole other list of fruits of the spirit that my initial reaction to is inadequacy. i am not pure or peaceable, i am rarely open to reason and mercy is my weakness. i am completely partial and i am one of the biggest inadvertent hypocrites i know. so many things wrong with me…BUT, the coolest BUT of them all, is once again my inadequacy is a shining beacon to Gods fullness and sufficiency, holiness and majesty, sovereignty and wholeness. the more i get to know Christ and his fulness is when His wisdom overshadows my weaknesses. how freaking cool is that? i don’t have to be this merciless, judgmental, combative flaming hypocrite anymore. i get to have the same spirit as Jesus Christ! what.the.heck. if that hasn’t hit you yet, pray that it does because seriously, what a tremendous blessing and inheritance we are promised. this is just one of my many thoughts this morning.
separate meaningless thoughts go as follows: danae and i are going shopping today because i haven’t bought anything for myself in a long time, besides my 10th tube of rum raisin lipstick, which totally doesn’t count. i surely cant wait for this weekend because there are so many great things going on.. tonight is open mic night, my dad is getting an award or something and a degree or something and im just so dang proud of him, i get to see my chubbs of a little brother, aly is turning 22 and we’re celebrating at disneyland and i have a concert in Murrieta where everyone i love gets to come and see us sing and praise God. nothing could be greater.
lord huron has been playing on repeat in my apartment for the past 3 weeks. its like it never gets old. im not going to say its the new fleet foxes, but this is the first time i havent gotten sick of a single band in a really long time.
lastly, i’m completely thankful for my roommates. yesterday we all sat around our kitchen table with our individual tubs of ice cream, Golden Girl style, and talked about our love lives, struggles, cats and the like. i am so thankful sincerely for women who i get to live with who sharpen me, challenge me, encourage me, and make me laugh like nobodies business. so heres to you danae, lily, and sierra. you ladies sure are great.
i think im done now.